Monday, October 11, 2004
Wow!! I'm on medication and I can wake up early... Actually woke up at 9ish without help from an alarm clock or anyone coming into my room... only found out today that Mondays on cable, they show 2 freaking hours of CSI back to back. That's so cool...
Had dinner with my Mummy at Tampines Mall again today... we ate at the Food Court... I'm glad I'm sick and on MC... I can spend more time with my Mummy and she won't feel so lonely. She and I were looking at handphones together... I believe that she wants to upgrade her phone to something else, but doesn't know which model to get... It's very fun window shopping with her... You really can get an insight on how she feels about things and her taste on dressings.
I'm sad though... She shared with me that she often feels left out being home alone on most days. My older brother is AWOL from home, my older sister is overseas studying, my Daddy is ALWAYS at a freaking 'meeting' and I'm stuck in camp... So she's alone at home... I'm worried and I'm sad that the MOST IMPORTANT thing in my life is like this... I know I need to do something, but what can I do?! My camp is like in LIM CHU KANG... the other side of the island and I can't come home everyday.
Plus I truly HATE myself!! I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE MYSELF!!! I can't believe I got annoyed with the opinions she had!! The way I answered her and told her not to bother cause it's not her problem!! WHAT KINDA SON/PERSON AM I TO SAY THAT TO HER AFTER I FIND OUT WHAT SHE'S GOING THROUGH!!??!! I LOVE MY MUM SO MUCH BUT ALL I DO IS CAUSE HER GRIEF WITH MY SHORTCOMINGS!!! I'm a horrible person!! I'm very opinionated and I know which side I get it from... I know that she misses my sister alot, so Che Che, you'd better get your BUTT back to Singapore as soon as you can or call Mummy ever so often... My Mummy really HATES being alone, I mean, who doesn't? And I can see that 'front' she puts on for us to show that she's okay, but I somehow can tell that she's lonely...
tony82
11:45 AM
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 - Name: tony82
- Location: Singapore, Tampines, Singapore
I've been told that I'm the life of the party, well, that might be true only if I'm in the mood... hehehe I'm a hopeless romantic, sporty and basically out of my mind... I'd try mostly anything once and I'm not afraid to make a fool of myself, which is quite often nowdays... I can make friends anywhere I go, but that's only if they speak English. I'm at home indoors as well as outdoors, and if you're a clubber and call me out, more often then not, I'd go if I had the money and I'm free the next day... I'm very sweet and parents love me... Really, I get along with parents very easily... strange but true... I'm a musical buff, I try never to miss a musical or theater performance which catch my eye and I'm a photo-slut... I absolutly lurve having my photo taken! I annoy people very easily, but somehow they always still want me around... heheheh
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