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Monday, February 20, 2006

September 2005 - Feburary 2006

Okies!! Hello!! I'm alive!!! I'm not dead... yet.... hahaha Well, yes, it's been such a long over due wait for yours truely to blog again. I have to be honest... I HAVE BEEN LAZY!!! YES!! YOU READ CORRECTLY!!! L!A!Z!Y!! Almost 9 months have passed... Yes... enough time for a baby to develop and be born to the world... Enough with the sarcastic thoughts k? <-- (You guys can't fool me saying that you REALLY didn't have any of those thoughts... CONFESSION!!!)

Anyhoo, my first sem went by with fun filled activities, however towards the end of semester, the activities dramatically died down and I was more of less always in my room trying hard to fight the solitude. I came back to Singapore in early November to the delight of many and soon found myself back in the arms of loved ones and back singing in the choir. Funny thing, or maybe it's a sad thing, that many didn't even realise that I was gone... They just figured that I had no time to come to sing for choir. Oh well, the kinship I felt in the choir really disappeared faster than I'd like to believe it would... Maybe it's a sign for me to move on away from the choir... Have I outgrown singing with GII? I really hope not... At home, I realised that it had become quite a crowded place... Before I even realised, or wanted to realise, there wasn't like 3 adults and 2 adolesent teenagers anymore... It was more like 5 adults sharing the same home. It is very cosy, but there are times when there is lack of personal space... It's all good though... I began hanging out with my Hunny Bee and before I knew it, I was roped into working with her. Carolling Angels singing 2 weeks before Christmas till Christmas Eve... Sounds pretty alright, till I found that it was only 3 strong and we were to go from mall to mall singing Christmas Carols of the non-religious nature. We were so restricted with our song list, that we started singing random songs just for the sake of it... Tiring at first, but soon it turned out to be quite fun and enjoyable. Just don't think about people recognising you while you're performing otherwise you'll just freak out. In costume, Hunny Bee and I looked like certain local celebrities which made our job pretty nerve wrecking... Everywhere we went there were paparazzi styled photos being taken of us... >shudder<

It was a huge learning experience, however, I was pretty sad to realise that Singaporean Chinese in their 40s and Singaporean Malay teenagers who didn't understand the concept of Christmas or public performance gave us dirty looks and looks of disgust while we were performing... Young mothers, who's children were about lower primary school age, were showing their children how to pull the feathers off the my wings. (dunno why they left the girls alone and targeted me... The lone male Angel being abused by mortals... *sob* *sob*) Don't they realise that they shouldn't be doing these sorts of things... It's basic moral education (Hao Gong Ming.. I think?) and decorum. If you don't wanna listen to us sing, just move along and DON'T PULL MY FEATHERS!!! sigh ;(

Anyways, on a happier note, I spent my first Christmas with my Hunny Bee... I love her so much... After our last performance on Christmas Eve, she came home with me and joined me in a Christmas Dinner at my Grandmothers place... After which, I took her to experience Christmas the way I experience it all the time... Midnight Mass and then after party till the morning comes... The Carolling session by the 'combined choir' was... how do I put it gently... hurtful to ones ears... not the way I wanted my Hunny Bee to hear... but Mass was pretty alright according to her. The after party didn't really go as I hoped, casue I think we were both very tired and we really needed to sleep... So at around 3am, my cuz, Melvin, My Sister,Hunny Bee and I headed home to rest... Hunny Bee stayed over till morning, then she had to go home... Really glad that she was with me... Love her to bitz... Dunno what I'd do without her.

Strangly, for some reason, my Dad suddenly wanted the whole family to be together to count down the New Year... So he forbade us to leave the house to attend any parties organised... Which honestly pissed the hell out of me... But now that I think about it, it was good that we all stayed back, cause it would have been the last New Year till dunno when, for us to count down the New Year as a family... My Sister and I were going overseas to study and who knew where life would take us and what paths we would choose...

Next the preparations for Chinese New Year... And the welcoming of MY YEAR!!! The Year of the Dog!! I felt that it was really cool that Angie (My Brother's Girlfriend) and Hunny Bee (My Girlfriend) came over to help out with the making of the Chinese New Year goodies... In learning from the Master (My Mum), they not only gain the knowledge and skills to make Chinese New Year goodies, but in a subtle way, bond with my family... It's very comforting to see the look of acceptance given to them by various members of my family... All they need now is to survive my extended family. (Ya! Like my extended family is that bad... Everyone in my family is accepting and hospitable to girlfriends and boyfriends...)

Chinese New Year was Awesome!!! Not only did I spend time with my extended family (I love them so much!), I got to spend it with my Hunny Bee (I love her so so so much!!)... After the mandatory visiting of the relatives, My Dad dropped me off and I went to Hunny Bee's Tua EE's house. I was very nervous to be there and really didn't know what to expect... I was worried that maybe her family wouldn't like me, then we'd have such big problems...sigh... I found that her extended family was actually much like mine, but much younger... Everyone was so hospitable, warm and friendly, I felt right at home with them... Lucky!!! Everyone seemed to like me, espically since I was dating the oldest grandchild of the family... on both sides summore, but this was just her mum's side... Huge responsibility... But I believe I'm up to the challenge.

The end of Chinese New Year marked the point where My Sister and I had to start packing for we were leaving for Australia again... Happy, Sad, Nervous, Scared, Apprehensive and Withdrawn were some of the feelings that were jumbled up together to try to understand what we were feeling... My Sister's left first, which made My Mum a little depressed... In the wake of those feelings, My Mum also had to come to terms with Me leaving for Australia also... Even more tears were shed than the first time I left, which made me look like a first-time leaver... hahah so farney... The people around us just looked at my family in amazement as tears just kept flowing... Thanks Hunny Bee for being at the airport to send me off... It really pained me to see you cry... I never wanted to hurt you in anyway and the tears I wanted you to have for me would be tears of Joy rather than tears of saddness... I don't ever want to make you sad, but you know that my leaving is for the future... OUR FUTURE... I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!

tony82 11:31 PM
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